Friday, June 18, 2010


17th and 18th June 2010

Thursday we had the most inclement weather with heavy rain and powerful winds I was so relieved that I was not going to school. Even in our lovely warm home I still suffered with severe pain throughout the day and as the weather was so dismal I could retreat to my lovely sunny spot to warm my aching bones.

In the morning whilst I was awaiting the arrival of some special visitors I amused myself with a game of Upwords. I did not have long to wait until the people who I love so dearly and who make my smile dazzle like the brightest evening star arrived - my Nana and Pop. They flew down from Queensland to spend some precious time with the family as that was my Nana's wish for her 70th Birthday. Their cuddles cheered me up and seemed to wash all my pain away for a short moment. They spent the day with us sharing memorable conversation, then at lunchtime we went to school to hear Nalani sing. As we walked it began it rain and even though I was rugged up and had my Barbie umbrella the cold made my bones throb like never before. Finally we reached the shelter of school, we made it just in time to hear Nalani sing in her angelic, gentle voice her song she had written herself for Mr Foulcher the Head of Senior School who is leaving on the adventure of a lifetime to write poetry in Paris. Her song is full of meaning and the tune is very catchy I was so proud to be there to hear her and I know that Nana and Pop were too. We heard some other amazing singers also then left to return home where I knew my aching bones could be warmed. Today I could not use my right hand at all and my foot was so painful even touching it on the ground sent shooting pains up my whole right side.

During the night I woke several times crying because the pain was so intense and there was nothing Mum or I could do to ease it, even heat did not seem to be helpful. Today I had school and even though I could have easily opted to let my pain stop me from going, I chose to go after having pain killers. At school I had Integrated Studies first, the class are doing a project on Ancient Egypt and they can chose what they would like to present, some are doing housing, others clothing and some the Egyptian Gods. I flipped through some books trying to decide what I should do but with my pain pulsating through my body I could not really focus on it. We then had double science, my teacher loves science and is always so enthusiastic about presenting what we have to do. Today the class were making silly putty. You can imagine all the cheers of excitement when they found out this is what we would be doing. We used beakers with PVA glue just covering the bottom, added a little water to that and stirred it, then we chose a food colouring colour for it but we were warned not to use too much especially of blue as our hands would remained coloured for a few days, the teacher then added some borax which is a soapy like solution to it and we had to mix it. The mixture became sticky and we had to then wring it out like washing and then mould it in our hands. I was unable to mould it because my hands are too weak and today I could not use my right hand for anything, so Mum got to have a play with it. Unfortunately, perhaps because of the cold weather or it could have been Mum's cold hands ours did not work out but we were not the only ones. Even though the teacher warned people about adding too much food colouring there were several people who were walking around with green and blue hands.

I was so glad when it was time for recess as I felt so debilitated with my pain and I just wanted to have some more pain killers, cuddle up under a snugly, warm blanket and have a soothing cup of tea. I found my sunny spot in the house and sat and cried with my pain, you don't always have to be brave when you are in so much pain and it is okay to cry. I felt relieved after I had a cry and even though the pain still ripped through me I could cope better.

We had a house inspection today at lunch time and she thought we kept our house beautifully, there has been some confusion about our oven, as she thought the owner was going to buy a new one so the electrician was cancelled. We do not know now how long it will be until we have an oven to cook in. I hope it won't be too long as I love cooking, it is almost like a form of therapy and I am anxious to cook some short bread, muffins and vegetable slice. I had been hoping to cook my Nana an extra special cake for her birthday but I don't think that is going to happen.

We planted some roses in the garden and I chose one to be my special one, it is called Cinderella and it is a fragrant, pink rose I can hardly wait for Spring to see it bloom. I wanted to finish off my last painting, once again my right hand just could not grip anything and the paintbrush just kept falling out, so I used my left hand again. You can't give up, you have to try and try again and if that does not work you look for a different solution and that is what I have done by using my left hand.

It has been extremely slow typing my Blog today and as I come to an end my throat is tight and I have a little tear trickling out of my right eye down my soft cheek. Tomorrow hopefully will bring more sunshine in my life but if it doesn't I will just soldier on the best way I can with determination.

Some interesting news from today is that a libray in Singapore are interested in purchasing my book, world interest, I am so touched and honoured to think that I might just yet reach that dream of having my book read by everyone in Australia as well as all around the World.

'Love your family and friends with your entire being because they are the most important part of your life'


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Anonymous said...

Dear Dainere,

Thanks for coming to watch me sing, having you there made it so special.
You are such a strong person even when you are in so much pain, like today you are so determined.

It is great to hear the news about the library in Singapore wishing to purchase copies of your book. I am so proud of your achievement in helping others like you through your book.

love you heaps
<3 Nalani

Anonymous said...

Dear Dainere

It must be lovely to spend time with your Nana and Pop. It is true that the love of family and friends is the most important part of life. You are blessed to have such a wonderful family and many special friends.

I am sorry to hear that you are experiencing so much pain from the cold. Stay stong and keep smiling. Hopefully the chilly weather will get warmer soon. It is a pity it is so cold here in Canberra.

Thinking of you and your family.

Lots of love
Stephanie (and family) xxx

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Anonymous said...

Hi Dainere,

I am sorry to hear you have so much pain all the time, it certainly is not weak to cry, in fact I believe it shows strength to show your emotions. Crying helps us relieve the tension.

Do you have a bath at your house, when my kids or I are tired and aching I run a lovely warm bath and add some drops of aromatherapy oil, lavender is my and my daughters favourite. Also if feeling nausea peppermint oil is great.

Your sister sounds so wonderful and very talented. You have been blessed with such a loving family.

Try and stay warm and I hope your mum gets a new oven soon.

Love Monica xxxxxxxxxxx

Anonymous said...

HI Dainere,
Just wanted to let you know that I have read your book and think you are a true inspiration!
I wish you and your family the very best, and hope your pain eases soon.
Take care and I look forward to reading more.
Best wishes,